Everybody knows. As much as I deny it, people will always know.
I’ve dated many girls in my life, I’ve chased girls, I’ve changed girls, I’ve done everything you could possibly think of. But, never have I ever tried this hard for one girl in my life.
I saw her at school and practically fell over. She had everything I’ve been wanting ever since I could remember. Red hair, pretty smile, wears sweaters, and just plain out there. Little did I know what I was getting into.
Now, usually with straight girls, I could just flirt a little and just do what I do. But, it just isn’t that easy this time. I’ve talked to her for about a week and I’ve only talked to her face to face about twice, not even. I am so nervous, I run away like a little kid.
I have fallen for this girl, and it’s so hard to get out of this. There is no way I could ever just go on one date with her or even think of talking to her like that because of the rejection I get back. Every time I think I’m about to get over her, she does something that pulls me back. I can’t ignore her, because I cry.
I want to give up, because I know I have no chance with her. Why is it so hard for me this time around?… I want to just curl up in a ball and just not have feelings anymore.